Not Again!

I find myself in a dark place. A place where I must wrestle with the Word of God in order to be free. It takes a great deal of work. My head swarms with words and phrases, with verses and songs. Days go on and on, never ending. I look for any sign of light, even just the smallest flicker. Once I see it, I run towards it. It doesn't take long for me to get excited about the light and the hope that it offers. BUT then, out of nowhere, my legs are kicked out from under me. I feel as though I will someday soon, just quit.